It's ok

God completely intrigues and never ceased to amaze me!  One particular night, as we hung out, my heart felt heavy and conflicted.  "I am not okay."  The words reluctantly rose from my gut.  I was stunned as He answered, "It's okay."  What?  No, it's not okay, was all I could think.  He gently countered, "It's okay that you are not okay."  ....I fully exhaled for the first time in a very long while.  The healing of His statement continues to fall in layers.  You see, I gravitate towards the tenacity of a pit bull.  Usually my plan involves sanguinity and optimism with the complete determination to annihilate all negativity.  Admitting my defeat to God is never a portion of the objective.  If I can simply latch on to scripture and my unwavering optimism, I can do all things (neglecting the "through him who gives me strength" portion-Philippians 4:13.)  He was not surprised by my disclosure nor did He respond that I should consider it pure joy (Jas. 1:2.)
He simply held me close as I acknowledged my weakness.  I obviously couldn't see His face but, personally, I imagine He was smiling.

overwhelmed

I long daily, to be overwhelmed by my God.  To thrive within His embrace.  To feel His very breath upon me.

It is my desire to worship as I breathe.  To be consumed by the knowledge that He sings and dances over me....that my God bends His ear towards the resonance of my voice.  Sanity exists solely within His sanctuary and all else pales to compare.  The question is no longer "how can I make time for Him?"  The question becomes "how can I not?"  Once I confront this certainty, then existing within Him becomes the standard rather than my fall back posture.  At the thought of having no time for Him my heart trembles.

Once you have sought and experienced Him, literally fallen in love with Him, there is miraculously nothing but time for Him. He becomes your beloved, and you-His.  

You ask, "how is this possible?"  Seek Him for this and He will not disappoint   Pray beseeching Him for a hunger for His presence.  It really is that uncomplicated as it is His very heart for every one of us.